My stomach
It looks like a problem when gazing down at it
But I worry less in a dressing mirror, seeing myself from the side.
Sometimes it's the other way around: but I haven't yet figured out
how that could be possible.
I'm living with it right now; crumpled over in my lap as I type.
I don't want to lift up my shirt,
but if this poem is to proceed, I will need to look,
and possibly poke.
(a moment passes)
I have looked and poked
and have come to the conclusion that
it does not hang loosely; each roll has an agenda.
Each roll has form,
if not necessarily beauty.
It is tight in its own way; for what that's worth.
From above, it looks like a face:
the red trail of hair (the last red hair I own)
is a pirate's beard,
framing the sad mouth
of my navel
I think about it, I rub it, I dwell.
I discreetly check it in public places,
to make sure it hasn't gone out of control:
I check it in the reflective windows of downtown buildings, mostly
since I'm downtown so much
and there are so many women walking around.
I am insecure in every shiny downtown surface
and I check
to make sure it hasn't gone out of control
I take it with me when I seduce women
I have to, what else am I gonna do?
But I downplay it,
because I have seen or imagined
the subtle disappointment in a young maidens eyes
upon my taking off my shirt.
And I think
I may have
sensed them fighting their disappointment,
because they think less of themselves
for paying attention to shallow truths.
Essentially: my stomach causes fights.